Yann with Ayahuasca

10.26 am

Downed one gram of Syrian Rue (MAO inhibitor) with 1.08 g of Tampanensis magic truffles. I read a review on the site where i bought them whereby this French guy took 1g + 1g and was away for ages. It seems like very little, when the normal full dose seems to be 10-20g of mushroom. The Syrian Rue supposedly empowers the truffles, making it necessary to reduce the dose. Still, 1g seems like very little.

Note : be very very careful when taking an MAO inhibitor such as Syrian Rue or Banister Caapi (Ayahuasca) or some of the others out there : there are many foods you need to avoid and most importantly you need to be off meds, sometimes months in advance, especially anti-depressants. Otherwise, not only will you not get the benefits, you will likely get fucked up big time and come out even more depressed instead. Maybe it’s not the MAO inhibitor that’s dangerous in this case ? Maybe it’s your counter-productive chemical meds. However, the MAOI does prevent a normal process inside your gut. With Ayahuasca, it prevents your gut from destroying the DMT contained in the Chacruna before it can be of any use to you.

10.51 am

I will give it another 15 mins and then if no effects are felt i will take another gram of Tampanensis.

I am at home and have a sober sitter.

11.05 am

No notable effects, possibly a bit more relaxed though. Decided to eat another 1.10 g.
The consistency of these things is surprising, not at all like mushroom, hence their ‘truffle’ nickname i suppose. They taste a bit like black olives, with an acidic tangy after-taste.

11.10 am

A minute or two after having swallowed down the second gram, i definitely felt a “whoosh of relaxness”, but it lasted just a few fleeting moments. When i turn my head it feels like there is a bit of a lag in my vision somehow, but i can’t be sure, maybe i am looking too hard for symptoms.

11.18 am

Can definitely feel my arms & hands relaxing. Feeling a bit sleepy, which i don’t like. Stood up and felt weirdly lighter.

11.34 am

Just downed another 2 grams, because i wasn’t really getting any effects. Maybe a bit giggly at times.

11.57 am

Still nothing. Going to take 2 more grams.

1 pm or so

By now i have taken a 4 more grams, and then eventually what was left in the bag : 15 g in total, ie a normal full dose, albeit with the 1g of crushed MAOI Syrian Rue, which is supposed to boost things tremendously. I must be resistant to these things : no visions.

1.20 pm

I am outside painting the gate, by myself, and i am starting to giggle like a lunatic. It’s kinda fun !

5 pm

The effects are wearing off (i thought they never would). The uncontrollable giggling that started at 1.20pm and lasted about 50 mins and then came back intermittently, has finally come to an end. It wasn’t without enjoyment, i must say, but it is still a bit annoying to not be able to focus or even urinate because your abs are fully contracted and you are in constant movement from the flat out laughter. Tears, runny nose, coughing up phlegm…all seemed to be side effects of the laughter, but that doesn’t make sense.
If someone has a bad joke to tell, this it the time to hear them : no matter how dreadful, you will giggle away like a lunatic.

The following day

I will probably do it again sometime, but i feel no need to do it today or soon. It was nothing like i expected. I expected visuals, i didn’t get any. I did not expect uncontrollable giggling, i sure got that. At one point i felt — but could not see — my surroundings slightly inflating and deflating along with my breathing. Weird. I imagine a higher dose might have made that into a fully fledged hallucination.

Insights & Conclusion

Yesterday, around 3 pm or so, i was getting a bit tired, would have liked to lie down…couldn’t because of the mess in this fucking house (not my house), so i sat down on the only sofa space left, surrounded by the piles of mess. I would normally get depressed by the overwhelming consequences of this hoarding, decades of hoarding. I just giggled, and things fell into place ever so clearly : these things were there because we had wanted them there. We wanted them there. That was it, the very clear key : why do we want these things here ? The answer, the problem, the solution are not outside of us in the mess, they are within us. It was just so obvious, not tragic ! Easy, really.

Throughout the hours of this strange experience, i would talk/giggle on & off with my brother, who was busy cutting branches in the garden. Even with the effects on the rise or at their height, my brother says i was making sense. I had trouble pronouncing uncontrollawobbly. I couldn’t focus very long without giggling & losing track, but when the giggling gave me space to think, things were ever so clear : like a shortcut to what matters. Why on earth one needs to take mushrooms to achieve that is beyond me, and a bit sad, but all the bollocks was a whole lot clearer. Listening to my sick mother left me astounded, disarmed. I do want to help her, i just don’t know how. Oh yes, the idea has occurred to me : laying shrooms in her tea/food, or maybe some Lucy… But i don’t want to lose what trust there is. We’ll go with microdosing Iboga : that’s arriving in a few days.

Overall, i feel no addiction and have no idea when i will do it again. Next time, i will try the Hawaiian Highs, supposedly stronger. Maybe that will trigger visuals. I wonder if these Tampanensis will systematically give me the giggles. So far i have never had a ‘bad trip’ on any of the Ayahuasca, and now neither on mushrooms…will next time be all rosey ? I don’t want to make a habit of it, and don’t think i will need to anyway.
It has been a positive experience in my opinion : giggling feels healthy and it takes the edge off of the drama, helps you be more reasonable about this “reality”, in a way. Helps you remove importance from things that should not have any : throwing away junk should not be a problem, if it bothers us we should just pick it up and remove it from the house. We don’t so the issue is deep within us ; it is important to explore it and seek out, excavate it from our souls/minds.

I cannot recommend these things, because i cannot predict what it will do to you. If you are here looking for advice, try this : always start with a tiny tiny dose to check for allergies, and go slow. Do not gobble down the 15g in one go if you are on your first try. I could be wrong, let’s face it : i have no experience with this stuff.

Video recorded in the midst of the experience