My experience healing with Ayahuasca and other entheogens
06 Aug 2018 2 Comments
in About, After, Ayahuasca, Bufo Alvarius (5-meo-DMT), Kambo, Weight loss & nutrition Tags: 5-3eo-dmt, achieve happiness, After ayahuasca, Ayahuasca, Bufo Alvarius, dmt, Peter Sage, secondary effects, toad
Wow, i can’t believe it has already been this long!
I first took Ayahuasca in June 2014, it is now August 2018, and everything is changing, more & more quickly!
The list of changes is probably longer now than what hasn’t changed. From health & fitness to self confidence through a complete change of jobs…i hardly know where to start.
I shall upload longer more detailed versions but, for now, here is the very short version : FOUR YEARS IN FOUR MINUTES.
19 Feb 2018 Leave a comment
in About, Ayahuasca, Bufo Alvarius (5-meo-DMT), En Español (In Spanish), Xanga / Changa Tags: 5-meo-DMT, Ayahuasca, bufo, Bufo Alvarius, changa, como es, dmt, expectativa, experiencia, medicina ancestral, xanga
Llegar con expectativas ya es un problema. Una mente demasiada activa puede ser obstáculo al soltar. La experiencia de la medicina es una meditación muy exitosa, con ayuda, nada mas. Cuando meditas te la pasas pensando y pensando, y preguntando si tu meditación debería ser como la de tu vecino ? Entonces ? Porque lo haces con las medicinas ?
06 Jun 2017 Leave a comment
[UPDATE 2019 : one of my clients just brought this old article to my attention. I was warning him about the dangers of this mix. So i’ve amended the title and i’m adding in this warning.
It also comes as a reminder of what this blog is : a diary of my experiences and experiments, some of which have been mistakes. This is a prime example of a mistake, which could have been deadly. Indeed, this mix, in this precise order, can allegedly cause an excess of serotonin, known as serotonin poisoning, something that can leave you depressed for life or even dead. This link here provides a few articles about this.
Some people, usually facilitators offering this mix, will assure you it is safe. My advice? Do not take the risk. There is no need to take that risk. There is no need to mix, and especially not in that order. Either of these ancient medicines are potent enough as they are, give them the time & space they require, work with them.
I apologize if my article or video had misled you in any way.
You may, however, take Bufo first, and then, after a strict minimum of 2 hours, take Ayahuasca. I would recommend you wait longer, 1 or 2 days at least, and that you use a light dose of Ayahuasca. A better mix is a good Changa (‘Xanga’) then Ayahuasca. Always be prudent, you are treading on thin ice with these things. Also bear in mind that Ayahuasca is strongly and dangerously incompatible with certain things…find out all about that before you put your life at risk. ]
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About 10 days ago i had THE strongest experience of my life on entheogens (or anything else, i guess!) and it’s taken me this long to kind of come off it! I can still feel it a bit.
First i took a very strong creamy Ayahuasca, and the following day i smoked Bufo Alvarius. WOW. Just freakin WOW. My experience lasted 1 hour to 1h30, which is a fair bit when you know it can last as little as a minute.
25 May 2017 Leave a comment
Can you ‘bad trip’ on Bufo Alvarius / Sapito / Toad ?
And what is best to get out of depression : Ayahuasca or Bufo Alvarius ?
It strokes my ego to receive questions from people so keep ’em coming! 😉
This was a question from a YouTube subscriber and it’s a really good one.
More seriously, though, i like getting questions because i like the idea of helping people : it FEELS GOOD. My gut tells me ‘DO MORE! DO MORE!’. So i feel more & more happy because these videos and articles are helping more & more people. Thank YOU for deciding to help yourself! For THAT is the key! Not me, really, let’s face it. As much as i’d love to be the cure and some sort of guru, i’m just a twat who’s been lucky enough to want to get better. 🙂
Love to all. Yes, even the loveless, you too.
Hug.
Yann
21 Jun 2016 1 Comment
in Bufo Alvarius (5-meo-DMT), Inspiration & Success, Meditation, Psylocibin mushrooms, Weight loss & nutrition Tags: 5-meo-DMT, be grateful, be true to yourself, Bufo Alvarius, change your perspective, cure depression, depression, dmt, empower yourself, exercise, feel good, how to be happy, psilocybin mushrooms, stop being a victim
I wish someone had told me this.
Depression is usually viewed as a bad thing. And that’s the problem.
Depression is just the same as any other feeling : it’s your inner guiding system doing its job. When you’re in your car and your GPS tells you ‘WARNING! DANGER AHEAD! TURN ROUND AT ONCE!’, you don’t just ignore it and put in ear plugs. So why would you do that with how you feel about your own life ?
In this short video i explain why depression is actually a good thing and why you should do all you can to NOT ignore it and NOT hide it under a traitorous veil of so-called “anti”-depressants. I also give you a few quick tips on how to deal with it short term to improve your life.
Want to feel better ? Your inner beacon is the key. Listen to it and use it to your advantage.
23 May 2016 Leave a comment
Il s’agit d’un crapeau aux qualités uniques…et l’expérience qui découle de la combustion de son venin séché sera sans aucun doute l’expérience la plus merveilleuse que vous aurez l’occasion de vivre. Aussi indescriptible que de décrire la vie à quelqu’un qui n’a jamais vécu.
Vous manquez d’envie de vivre ? Vous manquez de gratitude envers la vie, l’existence ? Vous avez envie de renaître et de connaître votre origine ?
21 Apr 2016 3 Comments
in Bufo Alvarius (5-meo-DMT) Tags: Ayahuasca, Bufo Alvarius, bufo alvarius vs ayahuasca, sapito, sonoran desert toad, toad medicine
I was asked in a comment on my YouTube channel to make a video about the difference between Bufo Alvarius and Ayahuasca.
I forgot to mention something very important in the video : Ayahuasca requires thorough and lengthy preparation and also has many contra indications, Bufo Alvarius does not have so many (keep off anti-depressants, though). Intention, however, is still required and/or recommended.
May you be well !
🙂
Long version (for shorter version scroll down) :
Short version :
09 Dec 2015 Leave a comment
in Bufo Alvarius (5-meo-DMT), Inspiration & Success, Review Tags: 5-meo-DMT, Bufo Alvarius, consciousness, cure, how to be happy, how to fix the klint, how to make guillaume stevens happy again, truth
From now on, i will try to make a detailed daily update, mostly for me, for the record (that’s what this blog is), and a 2 minute update for anyone interested in the essence but not in wasting more time.
These longer versions are at the bottom of this post.
In summary, i feel GREAT, i feel IN CONTROL of my mind (whereas it was in control of me before), i haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since and i somehow would be very disappointed with myself if i ever did (!!!), i feel way more determined to do things i know i need to do and way more determined to NOT do things i know i shouldn’t do, and that feels just GREAT.
Meditation has taken on a whole new dimension, with feelings reminiscent of the Bufo Alvarius Experience, and i got some absolutely amazing feelings of well-being this morning before i woke up, with a deep inner conviction that i could do anything i wanted and was limitless (HAHAHAAA how fucking cool is that, eh ?! HAHAAAA I’M LOVIN THIS !!!).
At moments during the day when i have positive thoughts of love, of who i miss (mostly my brother & mother), basically when i feel in flow with who I Really Am, then i just start to feel amazing. I had this beacon in me before too, but i wasn’t listening to it. My mind would convince me that the beeps were something else. And so i would sabotage with alcohol (blurs away your consciousness and should be absolutely avoided at all times, no excuses!) and nasty foods to “satisfy” “cravings”, only to feel less satisfied and more miserable. I don’t do that now, at least i haven’t over these 4 days, and somehow i have this CONVICTION in my CORE that i never will again. I cannot even begin to tell you how LIBERATING that is. It’s marvellous.
I cannot wait to see what will happen this afternoon, tomorrow, next week, next month.
How i want my loved ones to feel as good and as liberated of their non-truths as i do of my own lies now. There definitely was a me before and Me Now. And I am NEVER going back to that frustrated miserable me. I am Alive and it’s the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Love Yourself, Love Life.
It is just one breath away.
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The 2 minute update :
The “short” version :
The long version :
[being uploaded, check again in a few hours]
08 Dec 2015 Leave a comment
in Bufo Alvarius (5-meo-DMT) Tags: 5-meo-DMT, Bufo Alvarius, cure judgement, eat ya beans, Free of judgement, Froggy Toad, Guillaume Stevens, Guillaume Yorick Munro Stevens, Harold The Frog, how to stop judging, mindblowing experience, most powerful entheogen, sapito, sonoran desert toad, The Klint, The_Klint, toad medicine, we are love, wet and squelchy bog
Bufo Alvarius
Imagine someone who has never eaten.
Who has never breathed.
Who has never drank.
Who has never touched water, who has never swam.
Who has never felt the wind, gravity, heat or cold.
Who has never had a body.
Who has never lived.
But YOU have, and your mission is this : to tell this person what all of those things FEEL like…in WORDS.
That is my mission today if you have not yet lived & FELT this unbelievable inconceivable unimaginable Experience that is…hm…the DMT that’s already in you all the time. And i don’t just mean Bufo Alvarius’ 5-meo-DMT, ‘the most potent entheogen on the planet’ according to Terrence McKenna, King of the Psychonauts. I mean Life too. The Experience, mindblowing mindblowing mindblowing, puts you face to face with THE only Truth : YOUR Truth. It removes the complete & utter illusion of the mind, that crazy thing/hamster wheel that has convinced you to not be You. It has distracted You from the Love, it has smothered you in judgement, it convinces you to self-harm & harm others, it connives with the ego to produce sarcasm, drifting you away from the what you were when you arrived here, in The Experience. The Bufo Alvarius Experience does not remove you from The Experience Life, it is the complete opposite. [Dark Side of the Moon playing in the background.] It blows your mind away, quite and absolutely literally, it puts your mind aside to Reunite you with You. Immediately, fully. No escapely. No lies-ly. Truth-Fully.
ONE inhalation, the most important one you will take right after the first you ever did, is all you need to Reunite the sad ungrateful miserable mind-bamboozled shadow-you with The Loving Happy Judgement-free Enthusiastic Life-Hungry Grateful Experience-Loving You.
You want peace & calm ? You want to be free of all the noise in your head ? You want to be free of all the self-sabotage & wasting away ? You want to be free of all that paining judgement ? DO YOU ?
There was a yann before and there is a Yann now. WATCH ME FLY, BITCH ! I AM FREE ! YOU HEAR ME ?!? I AM FRRREEEEEEEEE !!!!
HAHAHA ! And it feels SO FUCKING GOOD. 🙂 🙂 🙂
I soooo SOOOOO MISSED that, you have NO IDEA, MAN.
It is now day 3 and it is still with me at moments. When i am in flow with myself, i feel, FEEL in all my body the great warm energy-light-whatever it is, dunny matter, it feels GRRREAT. I am alive like i cannot recall having ever been. And yet i am sure that i have felt this before. When i was new to this world. When my mind hadn’t filled my head with its lies. I am not my mind. ‘It’s not me, it’s just my mind’ [I Want To Tell You — George Harrison, on Revolver]. I am not judgement. Judgement exists nowhere but in my mind. I am not judgement. That is not Me. I Am Better than that!!! I AM FRRRREEEEEEEEE MOTHERFUUUUUCCCKKKKEEEEERRRRRR HAHAHAHAAAAA !!!! AIN’T NOTHING GONNA STOP ME NOW !!! HAHAHAHAAAAA !!!!!! It WAS ALL INSIDE MY MIND, MAN !!!
I am not fear. That is not me. I am Love. I am fearless. I am Free of judgement. I am Gratefulness. I am LOVE.
I’ll still kick you in the knackers if you bother me, though. Yeah, just thought i’d clear that up. 😉
But mostly it has been my mind bothering me. Now i seem to control it instead of my mind controlling me ! And it FEELS FANTASTIC, MAN !!
Yeah, the ‘MAN’ bit sounds very stereotypic of the Hollywood high junkie, yeah i know, but…you don’t have to care about that. I don’t. It’s just me, and i YELL it out like there is no tomorrow. Guess what ! There isn’t ! There IS no tomorrow, or yesterday, there is only NOW. Right NOW is all there is and that is so clear to me now, oh my god what a RELIEF !!!
Don’t get me wrong, i still worry about things, yes i do worry about my beloved brother, i love him so much, and he, for some reason, chooses still to refuse this Freedom, this Liberation, to himself. I have much trouble understanding why. Is it because i had to leave years ago and he still somehow thinks he has to reject anything from me in order to avoid pain ? Or is it because his mind continues to be in charge and is sabotaging him, like we almost always have ? Our dad & mother both sabotage, although Mum now does it less (Kambo & Ayahuasca), but that has been our environment. I think i might still do it without realizing, but since Saturday 5 December 2015 (my new birthday ?) it feels like my mind is much less in charge. I am aware of some of its tricks. No i am not too tired to go to the gym, FFS ! You don’t fool me ! That is NOT Me, I Am Better than that ! So i went. For hours. This morning i woke up with sore muscles, but somehow almost grateful i could feel them.
On Saturday night i discovered i could “enjoy” cold for what it is : a sensation. It’s part of The Experience. It’s why i am here : to feel, to learn, to learn through Feeling and Experiencing.
My mind cannot teach me anything. My mind has no Truthful source, it cannot teach me anything. ‘The more I learn, the less I know’ [It’s All Too Much – George Harrison, on Yellow Submarine]. My mind can only do one thing : tell me about the illusions it perceives. Not ONE single thing going on in my mind is True. All sounds crazy, eh ? Well, You know what you needs to do, no matter what your mind is telling you right now. Deep down in your heart, you, in all probability, feel in your heart that you are not enjoying life to the full, that you are not living your potential to the max, that you are not as happy and grateful for life and you would like to be…what will be your next step ? More of the same ? Or will you choose to Be You Again, Happy, Peaceful & Calm, Grateful and Loving, Excited to Be here in The Experience ? Why on earth wouldn’t you ? Please leave your mind out of it, do yourself that favour, even if it’s the only one you ever do. Choosing lies over truth makes no sense, no matter who you are or what your mind thinks.
A thought of judgement has arisen. A thought of irritation has arisen. A thought about [fill in the blanks] has arisen. That is the ONLY objective thing to say about our thoughts. There is no Truth to them because they exist only in our minds.
My judgement was just in my mind, it never existed anywhere else. I am in charge, fully in charge, of my own Happiness. And now i have been shown that i had the keys to it all along. And i always will do. What i have now had never been lost, just “hidden” by my mind, my mind the obstacle between me & Me.
People who seem to have lost this haven’t. My dad, ‘a lost soul’ in his words, is not a lost soul. He has simply forgotten who he really is. He has been running away from the Pain instead of embracing it to overcome. We must face our fears. We must go where the fear is. I am going to have to jump off a building, sit in a room full of snakes, dive with sharks, and let big furry spiders walk all over me. Not looking forward to it, i tell you. But my mind used to tell me ‘no, i can’t do that’, and now I tell my mind ‘shut up, of course I can ! And I WILL !’.
Stoopid mind, that thang don’t know shit, dontchano. Shut up & eat ya beans. Hmm the bears & the squirrels…
When i think of what would make me happiest right now, i see my brother’s face at the place i was on saturday, with traces of tears down his face, red eyes, and a MASSIVE SIGH of RELIEF written all over his face, Happiness and Gratefulness gushing out of his every pore. He hugs me and i hug him back, he is so grateful he came & did it, i tell him ‘You did it all by yourself, brother. You did it all by yourself, i didn’t do shit.’ ‘We’ve started to fix Mum, we’ve fixed you, now let’s see if we can convince Dad somehow’, i add. He needs a few days to process it all but he is a New Him and he knows it, it is obvious to all around, as it is obvious about the other people there. Everyone has the same look of relief mixed with Gratefulness and happiness on their face : The Experience begins Here Now. We are Alive for what seems like the first time. I look at my hands & arm and it seems new and Perfect in itself, a feeling of Inspiration to Live and incredible Optimism flows through me, i now know in the deepest of my being that the doors of my Being have been unlocked. I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.
Love and be loved. Be True to Yourself. That is the Only Way.
We are here to be the Best Ourselves we possibly can. That means never letting our mind drift us away from what we Truly Are.
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Below you will find :
Just before : (here for the record, but you can skip this one)
Detailed account :
Short version :
Two minute summary :
Day 3 update :
Yann with Ayahuasca 
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